status update

I have been posting on fanfiction.net for approximately 21 months. So almost two years. I have posted almost 120k words. I have completed one long story (67k), multiple one-shot/short story/vignettes, and am in the process of developing an actual novelization of a game with some proper plot. (That long story up there was pretty much exclusively fluffy character description. I'm not sure it even had much character development to be perfectly honest, but I did like it.) In the process, I have discovered I can make people laugh, and I cannot seem to avoid fluff and romance. I adore dialogue. I can actually finish something I start, despite the previous 20 years of sort-of writing wherein I never finished anything. It's good to have proven that bad habit surmountable. /now I just need to work on the rest of them? *laughs*

SSDD

Holy crap. I'm at much the same place this year as I was last year. Just without pinkeye. Still hate November, and not so good at NaNo. Am pondering an extremely TMI post on the perils of depression, just to get them out of my head. But I don't think I have the nerve. Shall have to wait and see.

exhaustion on day 2 is not a good sign

NaNo update: 174 words for day one.

Yeah, that's missing a digit, I know. In my defense, day 1 involved the kid coming home sick and a doctor's appointment and me taking the worst possible route to the pharmacy, so pretty much no free time. Plus, still sick. November never goes well for me. *sighs*

Fic Update: Pretty much still stalled in the same place, chapter 11 of the collab and chapter 25 of the solo. Am refusing to write any of the other pieces fluttering around in my head, (mostly gaming characters) as I'm pretty sure they'd suck what little word-count juice I might have for NaNo. *glares at muse* Cooperate? I'll feed you cookies?

House Update: The less said the better.

In other news, I am ridiculously glad I called in sick for work. I called yesterday because the husband has to work late and the kid has pink-eye, but now I just feel wretched, and the realization that I don't actually have to deal with work later? Lovely. Precious. Delightful. And other good things.

And that's all I got. Am going to attempt to medicate, and make some lunch.

Happy November

Hope everyone had some good candy times yesterday. Or awesome costumes. (Or a really creepy neighbor? That one doesn't sound so good.)

I am, despite being sick and exhausted and stressed, attempting NaNo again this year. I will also attempt to prepare at least a short blog post every day, and get my house in order. There are things I've been meaning to do, and habits I've been meaning to change for years, and nothing has happened, so I'm just gonna chuck it all at November and see what sticks. I apologize in advance for the probable level of cranky incoming. I'm sure I won't manage all of it, cause that would be pretty close to physically impossible, but as long as I get something every day, whichever one of the somethings I manage, I'll be in better shape come December than I am now.

I don't actually have a topic for today, though, and haven't gotten far enough in NaNo to post an update, so I guess the real test will be if I show up again tomorrow. *knocks on wood and all that*

Watching The Colbert Report

"He was not only heroic, but he had venom in his wooden teeth"
OMG, Colbert is a lunatic. Making up ridiculous things about George Washington just to keep the interview in keeping with his crazy set. And then he goes and tells his guest that the Dangerous Book of Heroes should have blank pages where you can add your own hero, and he pretends to write in "My Dad". *awws*

Not that I ever liked the news in the first place, but Comedy Central has killed what little ability I ever had to deal with the "reporter voice" that news anchors use. Cause for all their craziness, Steward and Colbert actual use normal sentences, and their fake voices are funny rather than pretend-condescending-serious.

posting when sleep deprived does not promise coherence

So, my favorites list on ff.net is totally out of control. I keep adding things, and I can't remember which is what, and I know I've come across some that I enjoyed, and/or that I'd like to reference again later, but aren't necessarily of a high enough quality I feel like I should be recommending them in the same list as the extra spectacular stuff by Sinvraal and Jaer Wolfe, though most of them really are very good, but they all keep writing more, and I already have this crazy favorites lists... Argh!

Seriously, they need a couple different lists, or a way to star the actual favoritest of favorites, or sort, or something. The three wondrous Firefly Zoe/Wash fics that make me cry are hiding at the bottom of my list for no one to see, atm. I am weirdly tempted to purge the list on ff.net, and just put back the bestest bestest recommended ones, and keep a separate spreadsheet for when I want to find things. *laughs* But then, that defeats half the purpose of the favorites, which is to entice the people who wrote them to come read my stuff too. *laughs*

Then again, I'm the one who shelves her personal books in alphabetical order by author, and has been known to straighten and reorder shelves in stores, so I'm obviously slightly anal about a few things.

Not cleaning though. Never actual cleaning. Just keeping the fun stuff in order.

The last one is particularly funny, cause the 5-year-old is learning it as well. His bedroom is currently a disaster of toys, but he puts the movies and videogames neatly back on the shelf in the living room *in order* and he can't actually read enough to alphabetize them yet. He pretty much always gets them back in the right spot, too, which he has to be doing from memory, which impresses the hell out of me.

Smart kid, huh? (Who, me, biased? ^_~)

The youngest is still adorable, and having issues w/the breastfeeding, so there's not really anything to report there.

And why the frak are the DH and I not asleep? I must run away and attempt to snooze soon.

quick review of goals: writing, reviewing, gaming...

So... in repeat news, I love writing, even when I hate it. I think this implies it is good for me, and should try and do it more. But seriously, when the hate rises... dang, but words suck. Plain blank screens are the tool of the devil. Crowley would be proud of the levels of unpleasantness I am capable of spreading around when the words aren't working, or my beta readers don't get the thinks or the feelings I'm trying to get across. (And no, that think was not a typo. I meant thinks. Not things, not thoughts, thinks. It emphasizes the AWKWARD of my current annoying project.)

Or projects, really. I'm mostly just working on one particular fanfic, *insert fanfic NOT MY STUFF, I JUST LIKE IT disclaimer here*, but I do still have a couple character backgrounds floating around the back of my head. I really should work on them. *sighs* I need faster fingers, or a brain more skilled at the multi-tasking, or something. Too many words, too few hours in the day. And not enough self-discipline in the brain. Silly brain.

Can't even focus on a decent story by someone else, so I have a giant pile of library books I mostly haven't read, that are due back soon, even after being renewed. That hasn't happened to me in years.

I started writing a movie review, as we went to the drive-in a couple weeks back for a triple feature, but I didn't get very far. I found myself boring, which inclined me to the suspicion that anyone reading it would also find it boring, so I deleted it all. In short, however, The Spy Next Door is entertaining if you have kids who like the kung-fu, Clash of the Titans seemed ok, but I fell asleep, as the wide-screen-lens they used hurt my eyes so I couldn't focus, (the husband enjoyed it though), and It's Complicated was actually ridiculously entertaining, though I spent a huge chunk of the movie wanting to smack Alec Baldwin's character. The periodic stupidity was all reasonable, character-based idiocy, however, and thus helped rather than hindered the movie. And seriously, Steve Martin and Meryl Streep at her character's daughter's party? LMAO funny. Don't want to spoil it, though I think some of it was in the previews.

I really enjoy the triple feature at the drive-in, cause the third movie is frequently some comedy/drama thing we probably wouldn't have ever gotten around to renting on our own that turns out to be pretty good. Leatherheads was one of those a year or so back, whenever it was it came out.

And in gaming... nothing to report. Had a Sidori Gambit session last Monday which was quite good, and my poor scoundrel is horribly disturbed by Impie political machinations, but I can't think of anything in particular to say about it besides the fact that I hope this week goes really well too. ^_~ And I haven't played much of the VG's for some reason... just haven't been able to focus on any one thing for more than about five minutes lately, which makes books and video games less than thrilling. bleargh. I am uneventful.